Does Growing Ever Stop?

So, if it's not one thing... that's right. I feel like I must be pretty special to get to grow so much right now. The thing is, I've decided, although I'm having more than my fair share of fun, I'd really like to give someone else a turn on this amped up roller coaster! Right now, once again, I'm dealing with yet another disappointment and wondering why I become so down hearted when things aren't perfect. Will we all live if things don't change, yes. Will life as we know it be able to go on, yes. Will things be tough, maybe. So what's the big deal?

It's the fact that somehow, someway, I feel as if my testimony has been tarnished. I have been misrepresented, but I have been misrepresented through the actions of another. So really, it's only indirectly, but it matters to me. AND sometimes I feel as if this is the BIGGEST deal in the whole world. You and I both know that it's not. There are far worse things than this trial. This is not life shattering. Yes, it may complicate things for a bit but it's doable. Yes, it may be uncomfortable and humbling, but if that's what God needs me to learn in my life, then whether I agree or not, it's what's best.

I need to let the disappointments go. I must trust God.I'm not talking the "sure, I really trust God" in the flippant sarcastic way. No, I mean really trust God, through it ALL, the good, the bad, and the ugly. I want to be what He wants to make me, and I want to be willing to surrender to every moment of His will for my life! So, thank you Lord, for this trial. Thank you because I know you are with me and working out a solution as I write this. Thank you.. for being you.

Running and Learning

Why does it seem like when I feel like God is telling me something that I end up being more confused. I can hold onto it for a while, but then I can't remember it for a long time. Why... I really believe that it's because of two things: spiritual attack and that I need to be less lazy when it comes to being in the Word.